Day 17

Water

Water is such a soothing thing (unless you have to pee, then it's the worst sound in the world!) We took a family vacation in Montana and had a river right by the house we were staying in.  It was so relaxing to sit on the deck and listen to the river!  The river was really high I might add because they had had a lot of rain/snow that year but still it was soothing :)

 

You can see how high the river was at the time...but look at the view we had!  Isn't it beautiful?

Day 16

Something you see every morning

I would post a picture of my husband but I don't always see him in the morning.  So I'm posting a picture of Jake, I see him every morning :)

Day 15

Something that makes me happy

 

This what makes me happy!  I made this Popsicle stick vase in 5th grade and never had anything to put into...until I met Matt!  He brought me 7 daisies one night when I was sad and then on Valentine's Day he made me 1 dozen pipe cleaner roses!  I love this gift and it's always been my favorite gift from Matt (other than my wedding rings of course!) 

Day 14

Reading

Seems like I've been lacking for a bit but that's alright :)

Here's what I'm reading now:

The Infertility Companion.  It chats about ART and IVF and everything associated with it.  I will also be starting a book called Waiting for God to Fill the Cradle as we are going through this IVF process.  I wanted something that was a devotional that would help me focus on God through the IVF process and had a lot of trouble finding something!  Hopefully this will help a bit to keep my focus on God and not on worrying if this will work for us or not.

Day 13

Light

So when I first saw this for today I thought of taking a picture of the light in my bedroom because well, it's a light.  Then I thought maybe I am taking this a little too literally so I started to expand on the thought of light...such as a light at the end of the tunnel, the light of my life, the light that wakes me up in the morning, or the light in my heart.  I thought I would go with the light in my heart. 

I believe that Jesus lives in my heart and His light shines in me.  Some days I don't think that His light shines as bright as it should and that's my fault, it means that I'm just not paying attention to what He's trying to tell me.  This walk that I walk with Jesus seems like it should be so easy, you believe in Jesus, you walk with Him, follow what He says but it's not so easy.  Yes I believe in Jesus, yes I walk with Him, and yes I try to do what He says but there are so many temptations in life and some of them seem so insignificant.

My mother used to tell me that the nervous feeling that you get in your stomach is the Holy Spirit trying to lead you somewhere and if you don't listen each time He talks to you then He will stop talking to you.  There have been times in my life that I have ignored the still small voice and that nervous feeling in my stomach and the Holy Spirit has stopped talking to me.  It never lasts for long because Jesus convicts me in some way and I always come back to Him because He is my home and where I belong.  

Day 12

Reflection

I'm not sure quite what to make of this so I'll post this picture.  This was on my birthday in Rapid City, SD.  My dog Jake LOVES to swim and we haven't had a chance to let him swim at all since we moved here.  So while we were visiting Matt's Dad we took Jake swimming.  He loved it!

Day 11

Blue

This is Matt and me on our trip to Seattle Sept 2010.  One of the days that we were there we went to Ruby Beach.  We are told that it was a rare sunny day, it was beautiful!  It was also Matt's first time seeing the ocean :)

Day 10

Childhood memory

We got a puppy when I was about 3 years old.  A beautiful female English Springer Spaniel who we named Sweet Ginger Brown the second.  We called her Ginger for short.  When she was about a year old she had puppies.  She had 7 puppies but one died at birth.  David got two puppies to take care of, Donna had two puppies to care for, I had one puppy and my dad had one.  Mom got to take care of Ginger.  It was so much fun to have one little puppy to take care of.  I named him Ducky because well, my sister named one of hers Bear so I thought I could name a puppy after an animal as well. 

One by one each puppy was sold except for Ducky.  Ducky was about four months old and Mom and Dad were going to keep him because they couldn't find anyone that wanted to buy him and then one day someone wanted to buy him.  Mom and Dad sold him and I cried.  15 years later my dad tells me that shortly after they sold Ducky he was hit buy a car.  For those that have not owned springer's they are a lively bunch and they like to jump and run (hence the springer name).  Well, Ducky hopped over a fence (he probably saw a rabbit or something) and was hit by oncoming traffic. 

I may have been 18 or 19 (it was summer but I don't remember if it was before or after my birthday) when I finally heard the news but it still brought tears to my eyes.  Ducky was a great dog and he was my friend.  I got him back though, in Jake.  Jake is my very best friend and it will be a very sad day indeed when I have to say my final goodbye to him!

Day 9

Adventure

This one is easy!  My parents take all of us on vacation every other year and during our last vacation we went to Montana and had a wonderful time!  During our trip Matt and I went zip lining for the first time!  It was so much fun and we saw a bunch of amazing scenery!

Day 8

A picture of your sky

This is a picture on I-25 on my way down for my last IUI

Day 7

My favorite quote

This one is easy, this is my life verse!

Phillipians 3:13-14

Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it.  But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead.  I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus

I don't know how I forgot about this verse in the last three years but I did.  God brought it to me again a short while ago and this is me currently, forgetting what is behind (one never really forgets) and pressing on toward our goal of being parents.  Matt and I can do this because if God is for us...who can be against us right?

Day 6

Something that makes you smile

This is a picture of my husband, the penguin :)

Day 5

Something that I wear

I love jewelry.  I love wearing significant jewelry and this piece is significant.  This is the necklace that Matt gave me for our 5th anniversary!

I also wear this ring.  Matt bought me this ring after our son died and I wear it with pride because I remember carrying Jeremiah with love and excitement.  He was real and it really happened and this ring helps me remember that I really was pregnant once and I really did carry Jeremiah.

I rarely take off my wedding rings, they are my most favorite possession and I adore the man who gave them to me and I uphold the promise that they represent.  The inside of my ring states the Bible verse that our marriage is based on: Song of Songs 3:4.  The inside of Matt's ring has the verse in it: I found the one my soul loves. 

Day 4

My abode.  We bought our first home in 2009 and have made many changes (mostly inside) in the last three years

Day 3

Something you (me) love

My puppies!  I love them so much!

This is Charlie when he was a puppy

This is Allie

And this is Jake (my favorite but don't tell the other two!) This picture is actually from a few days after I miscarried and the first time he would talk to me.  He knew that I really needed him so he cuddled up to me!

Day 2

Something you eat

My current obsession is Qdoba!  If I could I would eat Qdoba everyday but alas it doesn't help with me with my weight loss goal (I'm down 2lbs btw!)

Day 1

A picture of Me :)

I picked this picture of me because I felt super cute that day and very confident in myself.  I picked out that shirt because every time that I wear it I tell myself that my rainbow baby will come and I will soon hold him/her!

30 day challenge!

For the next 30 days I'm going to do this challenge to keep my mind busy and not thinking about impending IVF :)

Picture Challenge - 30 Day

1.  You
2.  What you eat
3.  Something you love
4.  Your abode
5.  Something you wear
6.  Something that makes you smile
7.  Your favorite quote
8.  Your sky
9.  Adventure
10. Childhood memory
11. Blue
12. Reflection
13. Light
14. Reading
15. Something that makes you happy
16. Something you see every morning
17. Water
18. Meditation
19. Sweet
20. Someone you love
21. Dreams
22. Warm
23. Something old
24. Guilty pleasure
25. Homemade
26. Your favorite color
27. Happiness
28. Your sunset
29. Close up
30. Nature