Good news!!

September 13, 2012

I was diagnosed with rheumatoid arthritis in 2006.  At that time I wasn't looking at having a baby so I wasn't worried about the consequences of taking medicines to help the RA.  When Matt and I started this journey to become parents I knew that the medicine I was taking was considered safe while we were trying and safe while pregnant but until today I thought it was not safe for breastfeeding.  I was initially told that I could only be off the enbrel for 6 weeks postpartum to breastfeed and then had to go back on because RA can come back with a vengeance after pregnancy.  Today on one of the babycenter message boards (the RA board actually) there was a message about how enbrel is now considered safe while breastfeeding!  This means that I can breastfeed as long as I or baby wants to!!  I can't even begin to express how excited I am about this, my only prayer now is that I will indeed conceive a baby and that the enbrel will continue to work for me!

Sometimes dreams are painful!

September 12, 2012

Last night I had a wonderful and bittersweet dream.  I dreamt that my parents, brother's family, sister's family and all three of our dogs went out to Platte, SD to see Grandma.  When we got there Grandma welcomed us with very open arms and delicious caramel rolls and gingersnap cookies!  Then Charlie ran across the street to Grandma's neighbors house and I chased him around the house and finally caught him on the neighbors porch.  I brought him back to Grandma's house because it was Sunday and well...Sunday is church day!  We all took separate cars to  church and Matt and I rode with Grandma.  On her dash board it said 'remember that I will always love you'

We got to church (it took about 2 min because Platte is really small!) and all 16 of us took up an entire pew.

I remember the days of sitting in church next to Grandma and I woke up sad because I know it will be a little while until I get to see her again.
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