Christmas and babies

December 22, 2012

This year for Christmas I only want one thing...IVF.  Sounds weird right?  I believe that our chance to have biological children lies in going through with IVF.  Matt and I had our consult yesterday and we are going ahead with IVF.  I'm not going to say when because it's a stressful enough event anyway...but I hope that it works for us!

The meeting consisted of our doctor going through the risks associated with IVF.  Some of the risks include ovarian hyperstimulation syndrome, blood clot, birth defects, miscarriage, and that this won't work for us.  The birth defects are similar to the general population and really and truly something Matt and I are not concerned about.  We truly believe that if God blesses us with a child it will be a child that we are meant to have whether that be a child that is perfectly healthy or a child that is not.

I'm both nervous and excited that we are going ahead with this journey and it's taken a long time to be able to wrap my head around the fact that this might be our only chance to have biological children.  Since I'm not the healthiest of women I'm slightly more frightened than excited.  I watched my best friend go through IVF and it was difficult for her and emotional and all those things you go through when you feel like something is your last shot.

My hearts desire is to have my own biological children and I believe that God will answer my prayer!  I'm so excited for my break from all this for a little while to take care of my body, my mind, and my soul.  I feel like this break will help me prepare for the difficulty ahead!

Did I mention I pretty much gave up coffee?  Yeah, I gave up caffeine a few months ago and noticed that I sleep better in general...but with the addition of fertility meds for three months I gained 10lbs.  Not a big deal but, it's good to get myself off of extra calories that I don't need.  I had a small latte yesterday and otherwise have been drinking tea with honey (soooo good!).  So far, I feel less bloated :)

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