I need a hero!

October 13, 2012

Or a miracle, one of the two.  I need to stop wishing for a baby so much because I don't know if it's actually going to happen.  I feel like I should hire a trainer because I am no longer comfortable in my own skin and no longer comfortable being me.

I'm at the end of yet another cycle that hasn't resulted in a baby and I'm weary oh so weary.  It's time to take control of my life and focus on something else for awhile.


  1. I'm getting to this point, too. I need to start doing things I used to love...instead getting swallowed by all this TTC stuff :(

  2. *hugs* girl! I know where you are coming from which is why I've backed off a bit and it's helped me out. I know it's very hard to do though, almost impossible to do, but it's good therapy. I know I can't "know" your future, but you did conceive once and I do believe you will again in one way or another. I can handle waiting and working and the suffering if I could see a crystal ball and in my future see me hold my own baby, kwim? Big hugs to you! Not sure if you are working today or not, but maybe you can take some time to just relax and do something for you today, kind of a self-pamper thing.

  3. Ok, am I the only one who immediately thought of this song when I read your title? http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OBwS66EBUcY

    :) Hopefully that will make you smile. I know it's hard cycle after cycle to experience the disappointment. You are strong. You will get through this. You will be a mother someday soon, I just know it Elizabeth. You are getting close!

    1. That's what I was thinking when I made the title :) Funny story, that's what my nurse said today too, that I would get through this and be a mommy someday soon!

  4. ((((hugs)))) sweet girl!! I think of you as my hero often because of your continued strength and positive response to so many things!! I wish I could give you advise on how to deal with the feelings you are having, but honestly I don't believe I could give you any words that could or would be a comfort... mainly because I've felt that feeling of being disconnected and just "not me", and there wasn't anything anyone could say to me then that made me feel better... I just feel in my heart that you'll be a mommy before you know it and an awesome one at that!!


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