Christmas 2011

This Christmas I am thinking of the belly I don't have. I was supposed to have this big belly at Christmastime, be able to feel the baby move, and know if I was having a boy or girl. Well God decided otherwise for me and His timing is always perfect even though the pain sucks! I had this passing thought this evening as to why losing a baby hurts so much...does God want us to know a little bit of the pain He felt when he sacrificed His only Son so that we might have eternal life? That was a passing thought as I'm trying to find a reason for this hurt. I might add that it is not wise to ask God to bring you closer to Him while pregnant. He will grant you your heart's desire, only not in the way you were thinking.

I found this while searching babycenter.com.

What makes a Mother

I thought of you and closed my eyes

And prayed to God today.

I asked what makes a Mother

And I know I heard him say.

A Mother has a baby

This we know is true.'

But God, can you be a Mother

When your baby's not with you?

Yes, you can, He replied

With confidence in His voice

I give many women babies

When they leave is not their choice.

Some I send for a lifetime

And others for a day.

And some I send to feel your womb

But there's no need to stay.

I just don't understand this,

God I want my baby here

He took a breath and cleared His throat

And then I saw a tear.

I wish I could show you

What your child is doing today.

If you could see your child smile with other children and say:

"We go to earth to learn our lessons Of love and life and fear.

My Mommy loved me oh so much I got to come straight here.

I feel so lucky to have a Mom

Who had so much love for me

I learned my lesson very quickly

My Mommy set me free.

I miss my Mommy oh so much

But I visit her each day.

When she goes to sleep

On her pillow's where I lay.

I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek

And whisper in her ear.

"Mommy don't be sad today I'm your baby and I'm here."

So you see my dear sweet one

Your children are ok

Your babies are here in My home

And this is where they'll stay.

They'll wait for you with Me

Until your lesson is through.

And on the day that you come home

They'll be at the gates for you.

So now you see what makes a Mother

It's the feeling in your heart.

It's the love you had so much of

Right from the very start.

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