Mother's Day

This year on Mother's Day I was supposed to be holding my son and celebrating my first Mother's Day.  Well not this year I guess :(  This year on Mother's Day I will be celebrating my mother, my sister, my sister-in-law, and my living grandmother and the grandmother I miss so much.

Today I received a wonderful card from a dear friend telling me that she is praying for me this Mother's Day and even though I don't get to hold my son it doesn't make me any less of a mother.  I can't express how much that card meant to me.  I don't feel much like a mother, I feel like I try and try and still nothing happens.

My prayer for myself is that I would find peace with what God wants for me.  That if not carrying my own children is part of God's plan that I would be ok with that and that if being a mother is not in God's will that I will be ok with that too.

Happy Mother's Day to all mothers whether you have carried babies only for a little while and hold those babies in your heart or you are blessed to carry those babies in your arms.